haiz....really very sad...ever since i received that sms 2dae.in the morning...i've been thinking about it...for a long time le...haiz..the same question remains..y did this happen..millions of questions up in my head now...left unanswered..haiz...no one actually understand how i feel....i've been acting all along...i dunno..haiz..in front of friends..look ok...but then to myself...i only feel so lonely...juz like today..when we went to jurong east after chinese overflow..with ys,yj,von,mk,zm..they are like alot to chat about..i'm really keeping quiet ..dunno y..haiz..those who know about this maybe u may understand how i feel bahz..really can't find the courage to speak up..haiz...y...really a pity..only for a few months..haiz...anyway..since its her choice..i can't force her to do what..haiz...its already a fact...i've only got it accept it..its all my fault i guess..when i am that fortunate..i dun cherish those moments..till when this happens...i regret...haiz..tried to make this back to normal..but then to no avail....failed..haiz..it really broke my heart ..its like thousands of needles poking into my heart...juz because this happen...haiz...really very sad this time after reading that sms..feeling like not going to school..cause this really spoils the day...haiz...2dae keep thinking of it till i headache...the whole day...haiz...if this is the fact..really got to accept it..no choice le..really hope for the moment when someone really help me cure all my pain.haiz...i guess this moment will never happen..haiz...actually i dun even feel like saying all these out..but then i thought i might feel better writing it out..haiz..it can't be helped now i think..haiz..juz wish for the one i lurve..to be happy can le.. ='(