haiz....really very sad...ever since i received that sms 2dae.in the morning...i've been thinking about it...for a long time le...haiz..the same question remains..y did this happen..millions of questions up in my head now...left unanswered..haiz...no one actually understand how i feel....i've been acting all along...i dunno..haiz..in front of friends..look ok...but then to myself...i only feel so lonely...juz like today..when we went to jurong east after chinese overflow..with ys,yj,von,mk,zm..they are like alot to chat about..i'm really keeping quiet ..dunno y..haiz..those who know about this maybe u may understand how i feel bahz..really can't find the courage to speak up..haiz...y...really a pity..only for a few months..haiz...anyway..since its her choice..i can't force her to do what..haiz...its already a fact...i've only got it accept it..its all my fault i guess..when i am that fortunate..i dun cherish those moments..till when this happens...i regret...haiz..tried to make this back to normal..but then to no avail....failed..haiz..it really broke my heart ..its like thousands of needles poking into my heart...juz because this happen...haiz...really very sad this time after reading that sms..feeling like not going to school..cause this really spoils the day...haiz...2dae keep thinking of it till i headache...the whole day...haiz...if this is the fact..really got to accept it..no choice le..really hope for the moment when someone really help me cure all my pain.haiz...i guess this moment will never happen..haiz...actually i dun even feel like saying all these out..but then i thought i might feel better writing it out..haiz..it can't be helped now i think..haiz..juz wish for the one i lurve..to be happy can le.. ='(

hmm...quite a long period of days never update le..~~here to update again..
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~~Friday~~
well...2dae quite last day of school till weekend le...have IT/MR at 1.30pm for chinese new year rehearsal...then meeting at 2.30pm..hahaz..quite interesting the meeting..coz can get to know more new MR members this year...hahaz..then look quite ... small in size actually..lol..hahaz ..no offense lar actually..then mr awang told me to use his antique old digital camera to take pictures hahaz...took the solo pictures for the sec ones..lol..dunno y need to take larz..then some of the members in sec 2-3...very soon ..dismiss after discussing about the CNY thingy..went to canteen to wait for ys,yj,von,mk,zm hahaz...i think itmr dismiss abit too early..lol...waited very long lor...nothing to do then bought icecream...sit down...chat with 1 sec 1 boy...hahaz..i met him be4 in the arcade...not really quite close..hahaz..but still remember he owe me 10 bucks as i lent him very long time ago..primary six bahz..hahaz...then he very soon oso left le..then ys,yj,von came soon...soon larz..hahaz..then walked ard a while..then waited for mk..hahaz..dua pai siahz...so many pple waiting for him..lol..then zm next..lol..more dua pai...lol..when ncc dismiss..zikai come join us..then zemin said he wanted play bball..told us to wait for him..for like ard half hour..lol~..then we decided to left without him le..then halfway hor..yijie decided to wait for him..then we went back..then within like few minutes..she decided to go..then we go..lol! we follow like dogs following owner lor..lol..haiz but then 2dae ended with something very saddening..haiz..y did this actually happen leh...y...haiz...dun wish to elaborate anymore on this thing le..haiz...

~~Saturday~~
2dae really very sian..lol..played gb a while then went to mk house lol..then whole day!!!..very early went to his house..lol..very sian mahz..then decided to spent the time there till night..lol..started with listening to mp3 player...lol..listen then i sleep on the sofa..kept thinking of what happen yesterday lor..haiz..sad......then mk listen to his songs in the com 1..lol..then we like competing volume..lol..his com speakers vs my travelmate speaker..using batt de..lol..we on till so loud till her sister...sleeping in her room woke up ..lol..then i turn down the volume le..oso decided to kope his songs lor..but 4got to bring the wire when i brought the cd along..LOL!..haiz..then too sian went to jurong point arcade.play a while ..oso very sian..walk ard lor..then decided to take the mrt...with no destination 1.lol...so funny...then halfway decided to go bugis..lol..then listening to mp3..talking.then 4gt to alight LOL..till i realise y so bright de..then realise we already at kallang mrt..so need to alight..sit back 2 stops..lol!..then do so le...bugis ..hmm..quite crowded bahz..went to sim lim sq..nth to do mah..then walk ard.....lol...so sian too..every level of it every part of it like walk at least twice le..lol..then went out of that building..walk ard..bought icecream..lol..then realise like the place guai guai de..lol..then we think we on the wrong side of the place le..only hdb buildings..nothing else..lol..then walk back..then walk ard at bugis junction..so sian..lol..then took mrt again..no destination again..decided to stop when we see a shoppign mall near the station 1..lol..then haiz..arrived at last stop..pasir ris..lol..went in..nothing to do de..decided to head for its arcade..named "game station" lol..lame name larz..lol..inside hor..got lan..decided to play..then we realise y all the coms only a few pple using..less than 3..lol..coz the com sux..lol...the softwares use the pirated versions de..cannot go online..cannot play lan somemore..dortx..so sian..then went gunbound lor..lol...then dunno y yvonne sudden pop out..lol..then keep trying to waste time only lor.lol..then we like left 10 mins..to sian go to food court to eat..lol...then went back to jp le...von wanted to go home le..so pei her go wait for bus..after that went to arcade with mk..lol..very late le..11 plus..then saw jiajun and dilys at the entrance there playing dance dance revolution...lol..decided to join in the fun..but then so paiseh only..lol..then suddenly a pro pop out..lol..after our turn..saw him play..so FAST SIA..lol..see the arrows oso gong le..dunno how he like perfect score de..then dun wan waste time went inside to play daytona..lol..then very soon decided to go home le..

~~Sunday (Also Known As 2dae..lol)~~~
morning woke up..very sian..played gb a while..then want to go mk house.lol...went there saw mk and von...woah..lol..always saw von at his hse de..lol..then very soon..ys came..followed by zemin..lol..all very sian at home bahz..lol..played gb,puzzle bubble...and dance dance revolution..lol..very sian nehx..lol..then soon..mk,von and zm went to dabao lunch..leaving me and ys there playing puzzle bubble..lol..then came back very soon..lol...then eat le..then nth to do suddenly..ys decided to go home..after that we decided to learn how to play majong..lol..mk teach us..but then halfway hor..he teach till too chim..all admit defeat siahz lol..then played daidi on the table..lol..then very sian oso..lol...went to jp popular..von wanted to buy the lit storybk simplified version de..lol..hopeless sia..long time ago till now still cannot find..lol..then fang qi..went to play daytona with mk and zm..von behind watching..lol..play 3 rnds with them(expert,advance,beginner in order)..1 rnd myself..lol dunno y 2dae i like 4got how to play le leh...keep losing de...haiz..then after that went home le..then sian go sleep..till now wake up ..writing blog lorx..hahaz..
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haiz..felt really very sad throughout these few days...dunno y this will happen leh..haiz..really wish that this actually never happen..but...haiz..nvm...hmm anyone curios bout what happen..plz dun ask..remain curious..ask me i oso dun tell de lar...haiz..

hahaz..now so late le..lol...going to sleep soon le..juz now 1.15pm dismiss ..then waited for yishan and yijie till 2.15..then went to eat..then mk release at 2.45..then von at 3.15..wah 2dae von like so suay lol..lost ez-link and broken piece of contact lens in eyes there....after that we met their junior..then went to yishan hse lol....went there dunno do what..lol yijie internet connection spoil want to go there use and then all of us followed there lol...play games....then went to eat dinner..hahaz..after that then go home le lor...

hahaz..like posting blog once in 2 days le..hahaz..yesterday have mt overflow after school..then after that met yishan,yvonne,yijie,zemin,moonkian..hahaz..mk need to go band..then we decided to wait for him till he after band lor...in the meantime...we go mac eat..hahaz..we siao liao le...me and zemin go buy 20 nuggets each...then each of us bought our own drinks..all same lol..coke float..lol..then all shared the nuggets..eat till sian le ah!!! hahaz..then went back to school do homework...hahaz..saw mk march ...hahaz..all of us say very cute lol..then mr ang scolded us for staying in school till so late..then we pack up.go stairs there wait for him..hahaz...so qiao..he juz came down from band room sia..hahaz..then we go home le..hahaz...then 2dae hor......went to school..then go do PA duty...hahaz...haiz nvr get to chat with 2/5"04 in the morning..haiz..then 2dae the talk i oso dunno what is it about..i so sleepy..lol..at the ctrl room level sleep on the ground siahx...hahaz..2dae lesson time oso tried very very very hard to not to sleep LOR....SO BORING LESSONS!!!..then after school still have english compre common test..lol.. 3/1 so good lor..have the test at lesson time..then outside our class there that study tables...making SO MUCH noise!!..then finally 1.5 hrs of struggling...lolx...went to meet other 2/5"04 pupils..went outside our classroom last yr..hahaz..then alot of sec 4 walk past lehz...lol...dun say this thing le...after that we went to eat lunch...then chat a while..dunno my throat felt like very xin ku leh..then i keep trying to ren zu lol..then other pple saw me say i like xin qing bu hao..dortx..then after a while ok le..lol..go see mk and zemin performing monkeys stunts..in the pull up there..then after a whilel.walk ard..then go home le..~~~juz finish dinner hahaz..

hahaz..these few days suddenly nvr get to post blog daily le..hahaz..yesterday my mum brought me and my brother went to jp buy new clothes ..hahaz..wah so expensive leh..dunno y she can she de buy lol...hahaz..oso bought new pencil case..hahaz...then at night keep practising the a maths till i fell asleep lol..hahaz...then 2dae morning gave jay album to yishan..lol..then after school went to mac with her,zemin,moonkian,yijie,yvonne lol...then in mac change spot go kfc..hahaz..then mk on the way complained about gastric pain..then oso skipped his band practise later..after eating..went back to school canteen lor..hahaz..do homework..lol..then went home le..

hahaz...2dae went to mk hse..at noon..lol.go there only see mk and von playing puzzle bubble against each other..lol..so sian leh whole day..using the com..watching tv...nth else..lol..at night yishan went to jp with her mother .lol..then we go look for her..then saw her eating at kopitiam there..lol..after that pei yvonne go take bus..then mk and i go arcade..lol..entrance there always can dee the para-para pro players..lol..always got crowd there de..lol..we play le few rnds of daytona..then went to popular bought new jay album lol...then went to kopitiam to have a late dinner at ard 9.45 with mk..then go home le ..hahaz

hahaz 2dae have a fun day ..hmm..morning woke up..nvr eat breakfast went to mk hse le..hahaz..at ard 10am bahz...bought macdonald hotcake w/ sausage on de way...then da bao go mk hse eat...lol..finish eating then yishan and yvonne came le..lolchat for a while, watch she concert and la pi xiao xin or crayon shinchan...hahaz...so lame right..hahaz.....mk hor..and von played chinese chess sia..hahaz..dunno who win still..hahaz..then after a while...zemin came...then followed by weixiang and noel...hahaz..then chat lamely for a while lor..hahaz..then went to jp le....walked around to find birthday present for guomin..btw..hahaz...guomin..happy bdae..~..hahaz....yvonne oso kan shang le a blue nike bag for herself de..hahaz..then we went to meet sze and guomin at superbowl ..reach there saw them playing pool..lol..noel and zemin like so pro 1...keep thrashing sze and guomin....after that we went to the arcade there to play..while noel,zemin and sze went to play bowling....lol...2dae dunno why all like playing new games lol..puzzle bubble ah..hahaz..not new la..very old le...then went to play daytona...lol the daytona there hor..so lan 1...will turn itself de...then the gear oso so hard to adjust...then nth to do yishan decided to go home..lol..send her to busstop then walked back to join the rest at bowling..played only 2 rnds only HOR...AND COST ME 8 bucks!!!!!WAHHHH...lol..duno how they calculate de leh..total amount S$63.90.lol..dun care le la lol..sze,zemin and guomin bowling so pro de..me leh...SO LAN de...noel lac lac play can anyhow score le..oso destroy the ground la..hahaz...not bowl..is throw..lol..then after that most of us went home le....then weixiang mk and me went to arcade to play..wah..my standard drop till like worst than a begginer le....beginner track i oso can bang the wall..lol..then ard 9pm went to mk hse to eat maggi mee....lol...he cook de very nice leh...yvonne so xing fu got him as ahem..u should know what i refering to...bgr hor..hahaz...juz jking la...but then we keep watching hor...can see they very close le..hahaz....now at mk house writing this blog lor..before this watching crayon shinchan ...hahaz..

hahaz yesterday night too busy with A maths le..then no time to post..wah..so much questions to be done sia...piangz...lol..before that in school actually intended to go to polyclinic with mk after we had lunch at macdonald..all of us waited for ys siah..hahaz...actually met at 3pm..but then waited for 1 hour hor...she still nvr go the meeting place..haiz..dunno where she went..till then..its too late le mah..then mk cannot go polyclinic le..too late..hahaz..then decided to go home mah..then when i reach home..ys called mk hp and said she juz reach sch hahaz....back to 2dae...actually going to meet yishan in the morning at canteen de..but then hor..she saw me..i nvr see her..lol..cause i was chatting with my friends ..lol..then 2dae got the seniors' assembly..lol..they dunno the laptop password..still need us juniors to help em..=.=...lol..after that in class hor..terrible incident lor..lol..lent ppl copy my a maths homework..but then tio confiscated..lol..y the person who copied nvr get punish while the person who lend others got punished..diaozz..lol..nvm bout this..after on we had emaths test..hahaz...wah...nvr read qns properly..ask for volume..i dunno whether can put litres mah..lol..chiam..scared minus marks coz of that..lol...end of sch 2dae hor...lol..waited for mk..to go polyclinic..then went back to school to meet yishan to go jp to have dinner ..lol..yvonne walked around hor..wanting tho buy birthday gift for guomin..but still have not decided what to buy..lol..haiz..then after all these..went back home play war3 with mk,sze and his friend..lol..that's all for 2dae le bahz..

haiz 2dae nothing special really..same old thing bahz.only cme lesson..hahaz..teacher cheated us say what musical chair..then 20sec go change seat..till up down left right..diagonally cannot previous class de..then we guai guai change le..then she check the seating..then say ok..our new seating arrangement..lol..wah everyone shocked..hahaz..but good for me lor..i changed from the most corner seat to the middle seat 2nd row..hahaz..so good..thewn 2dae went home hor..haiz..felt so strange leh..so qiguai feeling..lol..dunno how to explain larz..hahaz

hahaz..2dae chitchat outside 3/3..as usual...before school and recess time..hahaz...then after school..oso sit there chitchat...hahaz..went to macdonald with yishan, yijie, yvonne, moonkian, zemin, noel,j oseph, weixiang..hahaz..crapped alot there...oso realised we are the noisiest in the whole mac..hahaz..after that..moonkian suggested us to go superbowl to play bowling..hahaz..me and mk playing only at first.. hahaz..funny thing happen when i was paying for my shoes..lol..i took out the money..then talk talk..the person gave me the ticket..i did not realise lol..i put the money back..lol...i so gong leh...hahaz..then we chose the light light balls..then went to play le..hahaz.i so lousy leh!!!..keep going into the drain de..zemin..keep saying he lousy..but then we playing halfway he come play a few rounds..then he keep hitting de..eeks..bluff us..hahaz..after that went home le lor..hahaz

hahaz..today hor...1pm go out 12plus return home sia..lol..go jp meet at popular(strange incident lor..lol..handphone requires a puk code ..lol..then use the coin phone call mk..met them at popular..then borrowed hp for a while..then call singtel the service lor...lol..) oso bought le chinese chiyushouche..then von go all the sports shop looking for a new bag..hahaz..no where to go le then take shutter bus to imm...0went to the food court eat ice kachang..then walk to jurong east interchange..bought foods and drinks..then walk to jurong east library then sian..nvr walk in..lol..then we all take mrt to caseo's hse..then watch crayon shinchan and she concert hahaz..mk and von so irritating lor..keep pushing me to yishan..then crap about what no space no space..keep squeezing us....lol..then went to von's hse there to eat dinner (von leaving us there...ownself go home to eat)..then pei yishan go home..then with mk bought slurpee at the 7-11 lol..then take a bus to jp..(lol..went in the bus dunno what is the bus number sia..first time..lol) then go to the top back then we alight at caseo's hse there..then we run to jp..lol..then went to arcade to play lor..hahaz..daytona compete le then see other people play other games..hahaz..then we went back to play few rounds of daytona..then go home le..then return home bathe..sit on the sofa in the dark, smsing pple....then dunno y slept there till 3..then wake up..sian sian..then go back bed sleep lol..then put handphone on my bed lor..woke up that time the handphone drop to the ground lol...wah so high drop till so low..dunno whether have spoil mah..lol

hahaz 2dae juz had a conversation with alot of people ...all 2/5 de...hahaz..all talking out their secrets le..hahaz..private conversation sia..mk story the most touching i guess..hahaz...juz now in the afternoon after school went to macdonald with them too..hahaz...haiz..2/5 separating le..but then still chat like that ..really very good lor..at least not like primary school after go sec 1 i lost contact with all pple le..hahaz..

hahaz 2dae after school so boring..lol..stay back a while with moonkian..then he came my house play war3..then i went his house..hahaz..then we went jp play daytona till late at night then go home sia...hahaz..

hahaz juz now came back home late..so sianz...went to sch early...lol..learned a new method of identity from zikai...lol..haiz..lessons quite boring lor..sian sia..hahaz after school still muz stay back for cme lesson lor..wah sian diao..lol..then cme lesson waited for the teacher ..so long nvr come..then like half and hour..the teacher came and told us she soundless..cannot talk..so no lesson..so early dismissal...then i pei zikai and yvonne go find ms chng..coz zikai wanna take music for o level mahz..then she halfway pull me away..lol..want to go find yishan and yijie..coz 3/4 haven't dismiss..hahaz then yishan and me went to mac do homework lor..hahaz..till like 5 plus..

hahaz recently so sian de..doing nothing so i posted nothing yesterday..2day sch le..haiz..weekend so fast over..haiz..yesterday i still remember struggling with a maths hahaz..then finally know how to do le..(recalled)lol..2dae in school hor..stay back after lunch chinese period sia..so boring..hahaz...then history that ms wee nvr come...then finished all the homework then lor..now nothing to do le..sianzzzz

hahaz 2dae met yishan at canteen @ 7am..then we chat till 7.30am then my cca le..haiz so sian..get rdy last min de everything...then i stayed in dnt room there hor...alone lor looking after the stuffs..luckily yishan came to chat with me..then i not bored hahaz..2dae nothing special too....all normal things..juz like last year..set up equipments..show..for cca display..then mr awang told me to take video..using his video cam..then i took ..went around..lol..taken all then ppl in itmr le..so sian.lol..then go take yishan a while hahaz,.dunno whether got press record or not ..lol..later mr awang saw her in the tape sure guai guai de..hahaz...then dismiss that time so chiam..run up and down..keep this and that..then finish le..going to go home that time mr awang asked me to help him carry things to his office..then pin up the daily duties at the cca board..hahaz..then went to canteen got yishan, yijie, yvonne, jiande, weixiang, moonkian, shihua, brian eating lunch..hahaz i went to buy a cup of drink and join them le..hahaz..then after that we went home..

yesterday tio a skin allergy..dunno called what leh..think is like allicerrier bahz..the pronounciation...hahaz....so chiam...haiz luckily today recover le..today reach school at 6.45...met yishan at canteen then we walk to her class then my class then join zemin they all chat..till bell ring then went to parade square..haiz..2dae brought so much bks to school..then oso brought much books back....recess lol..the usual same thing..2/5 having "class meeting" at the bench outside 3/3 classroom..haiz .lol..i always sit there ..then always tio pushed away de...hahaz..then yishan so kind let me sit a little..hahaz..(stupid weixiang and zemin pushed me away when i was sitting there all along..)...soon school's over le..then we went to kfc eat 2gether..yishan, yijie, yvonne and her friends.., weixiang, moonkian, zemin, zikai, and many more others bu ren shi de..lol..whole kfc like jss hangout place sia..full of jss students..lol..haiz..then went back school..keep searching for yuancheng to go com lab do that flash thingy..haiz..but he so hard to be found de..then com lab oso occupied..then muz go meeting at 2.30 le..then 3.30 that time .. went off to go search for the free available com lab lor..then no choice..went into lab 3 ...shared with other cca a while..then after like 10 min they went off le then we took over the key..of coz they returned them first..then can withdraw..lol..then do till 6pm finish le..then i wanted to wait for yishan they all to go off 2gether..but then they like meeting never end..so i thought i can go to hall help out abit..then went there..return saw editorial board gone..aww..miss her sia lol..i think maybe becoz too late le..7pm sia..then reach home at 7.10pm bahz..hahaz..

haiz 2 dae never write le..lol...yesterday..went to school....nothing to do actually..haiz..still orientation mah..then school end...met ouytside conference room..haiz..some pple and me did not get to go..coz we went the day before..yishan, siowai and vic..disappointed till cry sia..haiz..then ms wee tried to let them go ...sharing seats in the bus maybe.....haiz....today leh...went to school at ard 6.40..reach at ard 6.55 lol..raining sia...then muz go home take umbrella...then 2dae got disciplinary talk...haiz so sian 1..lol..then lesson time we also did nothing..cause...first day we only introduce ourselves..no lessons..then only english teacher gave us journal to do..recess at 10.45..our former class meet together to chat ..lol...occupy a red bench..lol..after school met at canteen ..some of us..then i went to cca..haiz..so sian..at technology there colouring banner sia..lol..dun feel like doing then ask photos from mr awang and went to com lab 3..lol...me and my junior occupy the whole lab..lol..we went past lab 4..saw editorial inside..hahaz...haiz...tomorrow i think our piles of homework will start..haiz..lol

haiz...today first day of school...woke up at 6am..wah..so cold and chilling weather..raining somemore..lol..wore the long pants so funny...went to school...saw classmates last year...hahaz...all look taller with the new uniform le..lol..esp weiming..grew taller than me le..lol!!..haiz..whole day in class so sian...only fill in particulars..lol..after school..we were called to go to a meeting ...very serious and confidential de..haiz..i oso bu fang bian reveal what is the nei rong of our 2-5 meeting with the teachers and principal....haiz..only feel sad...

today..hahaz..last day of holiday le..sianz..tomorrow orientation..so no need bring anything...haiz..sec 3 le..wearing the long pants so guai..lol

today went out at 12 plus to pei yishan go out...took 98 to jurong west..met yishan and then took 157 to west mall..hahaz..but then 4got to alight..so we muz take the same bus opposite back again..actually intended to walk back de..but then suddenly rain le...lol..reach le west mall also dunno what to do leh...walk here and here..then went to second floor ...felt so boring..lol...then went down to first floor again..lol...yishan went to top up her ez-link card..then we decided to go to jurong point..hahaz..then contacted zemin and weixiang to go with us play daytona..wah call them go muz ask till so long de lor...hahaz...reach le jp..went to popular..then weixiang came soon...met him at popular..then we went to play daytona..zemin came very soon too..lol..play few rounds of expert and finally..yeah mastered expert le leh..yeah..hahaz..saw yishan playing beginner..auto de...she very pro leh...hahaz..more and more pro le worz..haix...too bad she cannot play as often le.haiz..so sad y so many pple getting more and more hardworking le..hahaz..then at about 4..she said she had to leave..then i pei her take bus..hahaz..then went to 7-11 bought slurpee..hahaz...then i go home le..haiz..school reopening the next monday le..so fast leh...